Bit of an update

Right, seeing as I went to Sainburys yesterday while trying to start a blog, I thought I;d do a little update as to why I was doing this. This mianly to keep me motivated as after 8 weeks I can feel my will power waning and I really dont want it to. So here goes (in no particular order):

I want to lose weight because:

1. I realised I'd spent most of my adult life as a plus size.

This came as a shock to me when I realised that up to the age of 30, I had been between a size 20 & 24. In the past year I had crept up a dress size to a size 26 and I was in denial. I'd been a 24 for years and suddenly I was off up again. I wont try and blame it on anyone else, I ate a lot of food. And it wasn't your typical junk either. I love home cooking and much prefer to cook at home than buy a ready meal or get a takeaway. My job is stressful and I comfort eat, so after having a massive portion of toad in the hole, I'd have seconds then a massive bowl of popcorn in front of the telly. Scary!

2. I want a new job

I dont hate my job, it's just something that pays the bills, but more and more I find it hard to break away from the office politics that can drive my impulse eating. If I eat, I blank out, I dont think about anything else than the food being shovelled in and in a way it stops me from thinking about work. Its a fact that first impressions count and how would a potential employer feel when a 5ft 11, nearly 22st heffer waddles in saying, "Hi I represent everything that most people find disgusting, and I'll thrown in a free load of health issues that may affect the ability to do my job, for free!". By losing weight, I also think I could feel more confident in an interview.

The other issue about my work is that some people make me feel inadequate in my work, purely for the size I am. Always mentioning how new members of staff are soooooo sporty and they do rugby and footies blah blah blah, always mentioned while I'm in earshot. When I first started there, the managing director made a comment which he thought hilarious. We were all on a ghost walk, it was cold and windy and he said, "Hide behind cathy, I'm sure she would provide some shelter". I was mortified and he took my silence to mean that I approved his comment and started to go on about how I know how to take a joke. All i can say is try it now mate and see what happens!

3. I'm off on holiday

Excuse the pun, but this is a biggie for me. I've been abroad once, when I was 12, on the french exhange, so this year I decided to go on a girly holiday. This require 3 things: 1, to be able to fit into the aeroplane seat, 2, to wear fabulous girly summery clothes 3, not to sweat like a pig (and I do, its horrible). No more to be said on that subject.

4. To fit into fashionable clothes

Evans = expensive shit
Ann Harvey = expensive frumpyness
New Look = really shit sizing. Plus they stop at 26 and even then you're pushing it for choice
H&M = Well the leeds branch is shit also. And the York branch doesn't even stock plus sizes.

I'm running out of options!!

5. I want to be able to do sport

I really do! The company I work for is very sporty and I want to be able to join in for once. I want to run about and not get out of breath after five seconds. Plus when I started swimming recently, a friend of mine said "Ooo thats the first time you've done excerise for years isn't it?" I wanted to say actually no, I used to cycle loads when I worked in Leeds and then it hit me, I've not worked in Leeds for over three years. How does time go so fast!

6 My friends are doing it

Its age old this one, but my friends at work have been doing it since September last year and you can really see the difference. Another friend of mine is doing the rival Slimming World, but looks fab from it and now other people are joining. Its great for the support, and the recipies and just keeping going! I want to be slim too!! Dont leave me out of the club!!

7. I want to be slinky for my boyfriend

Nuff said hehehehe

8. For my health

I will direct you to http://www.gillianmckeith.info/. The woman in scary, but accurate how being obese can really affact you health. The worst bit about being severley over weight is one condition that I get, mainly in summer called Intertrigo. It mings, honestly, google image it and then read about it. I get it under my breasts and tummy over hang and if I hate it so much, then I'm sure it's not pleasant for my fella.

So thats it for now. I'm sure its made pleasant reading for someone!

xx